life at the moment

Life at the moment isn't exactly perfect, but what is?

My girlfriend of two and a half years and I have recently broken up and I have really noticed that life, i guess, is never what it seems. Break ups are tough, I know, but wouldn't it be nice if life was a little less complex? One moment things are literally PERFECT and the next moment it's all a jumbled mess and blurry.

It's just hard to see something you have put so much energy and devotion into just slip away out of nowhere, leaving you with nothing to do but contemplate "What happened?" Well, I wish I could find an answer to that question in this particular situation, but like I said, Life isn't what it seems. That girl was the best thing that had happened to me (besides a few more important things) and I felt for her what most people dream of feeling.

My life just seems somewhat disrupted of course. Nothing really feels normal at the moment, but I hope that feeling goes away soon. It should since I'm surrounding myself with all my friends and trying not to think about what came to an end. The saying "you don't know what you have until it's gone" is certainly true in this case.

By no means am I literally sitting and waiting for her and I to go back to the way we were, but if the opportunity ever arises again, for now I'd have to say I would definitely take it. But like I said, I'm not going to sit around and be sad all the time or wait for her -- she knows where I'm at. I AM glad that we ended on good terms, given the situation, and I am glad she would like to remain close friends (can't just completely cut each other off). "It could be worse" is another saying that I definitely believe in after this situation.

As for now, dating is not even on my radar (sorry ladies, you all are confusing) -- I'm just going to enjoy the smaller, LESS COMPLEX things in life, like hanging out with my friends and just enjoying the simple fact that I am alive. As Travis Tritt says, "It's a great day to be alive." OH, and I must leave you with the ever-so-famous:

"Carpe diem."